FCKuCANCER.

hey y’all. what’s been up? i’m certain i have stories to tell…

but first, cancer.

so lets catch you up. but also, full disclosure i have no idea where we left off so apologies if some of this is a repeat…

i had my scans in the beginning of january and they were fine. last month i had my xgeva shot and ugh im such a dope, i completely forgot i also had an oncologist appointment and didn’t remember until i had already left. very much on brand. so i turned around and drove back to the hospital. when i met with my oncologist she put masectomy(ies) back on the table. even though i recognize that this is a good thing, i still had to sit with it for a while. i kinda knew it was coming but i didnt really mentally prepare for it.

fast forward to right now and yeah i have wrapped my head around it, discussed it with family, friends and support group and i’ve decided i do want to do it. i reserve the right to change my mind at any point but i do not anticipate doing so. moving forward with the surgery gives me the best chance at preventing recurrence in the same area. that is big. its big because recurrence tends to be super aggressive. and since im four, and its more of a when than an if…i’m gonna try and do all i can to slow this train down. just call me sandy b. but also, i would very much appreciate my very own keanu so send him my way if y’all see him.

anywho, i have a few surgeon consults lined up. the first of which is tomorrow. i’m hoping i like the surgeon, and the things she has to say. i’m also planning to fill you guys in a lil quicker than i have been as of late. fingers crossed.

i definitely have stories to tell but also i gotta figure out what they are and i’m tired af. so im gonna call it a night.

think good thoughts y’all.

fin.