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so i guess it’s time to address one of the elephants in the room…my marriage, or lack thereof. ha!

quite a few of you have asked me how i feel about sal’s new business venture, and i figure i might as well talk about it here so as to avoid a million little awkward conversations.

so yeah, sal is an excellent cook/chef, whichever term you want to use. it’s always been a dream of his to have a restaurant and in more recent years a food truck. well, after the separation he decided to jump out there and give it a whirl. he quit his job and went full entrepreneur.

so how do i feel? on the one hand i am really happy for him. it’s always nice to see someone pursue their dream, especially when you know they have a shot at being successful. on the other hand i also feel a tinge of sadness. sadness because this is something i have to watch from the sidelines. that part sucks. we’ve been together for, i dunno, the past 15 years give or take a break or two and it’s hard to see someone you love and shared your dreams with grab theirs without you.

he also started up this venture with his new girlfriend (i’m not supposed to call her that) but whatever…what’s another term you use for girl-you’re-fucking? i mean if she ain’t a girlfriend or more, then what is she? a girl he used to get the business up and running? gosh, i sure hope that’s not it. did i mention she’s twenty-eight? lmao.

so yeah, good luck with that gap. /petty

but in all seriousness, i hope the business is successful. the man can cook his ass off. he’s working hard and gone all-in so i hope it really does well. actually, no hope about it. i know it will. and see, that’s the thing a lot of you take umbrage with — how can i possibly wish him well? I don’t know what to tell you…if you can’t or don’t understand it then maybe you waited too late to call it quits on your past situations. or maybe we love different. or maybe cancer changes perspective.

our marriage didn’t work out. doesn’t make me love him any less. we both played a part in why things are this way. timing aside, regardless of what took place inside and outside of our marriage, my feelings haven’t changed. i just put my own happiness and peace of mind first, for once.