FCKuCANCER.

it’s me again.

and i’m back.

and yet, you’re sleep….o. i. o. i. o. iiiiiiiiii.

ok but for reals. i’m wide awake. but this won’t take long. i wanted to drop this gem i just came across on the internets…

a word. a sign. confirmation that i am heading in the right direction. because baybeh, i have been reading myself for filth lately. it’s rough, but necessary. what’s that shit iyanla says about work? well, beloveds, she is exactly right. i have to continue doing the work.

and when i say it’s been rough. i mean it. and when i say for filth, trust and believe it has been raw.

confession: i am ridiculous on so many levels. tonight i recorded videos of me telling myself out loud what i have been saying in my inner monologue for quite a while. and you know what? i needed to do that shit. i needed to release it out into the atmosphere, but also to document it, so i can watch it. as many times as i need to, because that sensation of release, more often than not, is temporary. and i know i’m gonna need to hear that shit again.

so yeah, its 2:15. tomorrow, is now today. and for right now, i am content. but also, this deodorant is no longer working a full day.

fin.