FCKuCANCER.

ok so this ended up being a rough week for me. wednesday was a low point. found out another group member passed away. that brings the count to three, two over the past two weeks.

although i only “know” these ladies as little boxes on various screens, we “knooooooow” one another, right. the thing about these support groups is that we all have this commonality. we can talk about how we are feeling unfiltered, med regimens, side effects…like anything without really having to think about how it’s going to be received. like although everyone’s experience, is their own, we all have this thing. so we all understand the various stages we go through. family and friends mean well, and are a much needed support system, but you can only really sympathize.

i say all that to say…this shit is hard. and when one of us passes, it kinda makes it all real again. that’s the best way i can describe it. it’s like you get in your rhythm and you think okay, i’ve got my routine, i can do this — then this happens and just knocks the wind right out of you.

so yeah, i took thursday off to get my head together. anthony and momma came over and it honestly helped. i’m ok. but right this minute, i’m tired so im logging off. i owe you a dog story — its short but i’ll post it later.

night.