FCKuCANCER.

village. i love you. and i have news…but first updates…

i’m gonna try and speed through this, because i’m super tired, and have an early day tomorrow.

so i had my monthly cancer day – xgeva, blood draw & oncology, oh my.

everything was pretty standard, as standard as this shit can go i guess until, of course, the oncology appointment. but it’s not where you just went in your mind. it was fine, it just went a lil different.

so bet. last month she cleared me for the dentist as long as i don’t get any root canals. apparently if i need one of those i have to be off my meds for a month prior and and a month following. man, i scheduled that appointment so fast. decided to throw the dental pre-covid treatment plan to the wayside and just do it all in one visit.

omg — listen. do not recommend.

i was not a happy camper. and i love the dentist. but yeah several fillings and a crown in one go was not a good idea. anywho, i had a follow-up a few days later for my cleaning, where it was determined that i actually needed one more filling. ugh. and apparently i have started grinding my teeth. so add that to the list of cancer side effects if you are keeping track. a mold of my mouth was done so i can get a mouth guard.

here’s the kicker. mouth guards aren’t covered. they are also not cheap. ugh. fast-forward back (i know that doesn’t make a lick of sense, but roll with it) to the oncology appointment – i asked for a mouth guard script so i can try to get it covered under medical. you know, because it’s clearly needed due to anxiety from having cancer and whatnot. we’ll see how that goes. in the mean time, this is more footages of me at the dentist.

and as usual, this post is turning out to be much longer than i anticipated. hashtag twss…

back to oncology…my treatment plan was changed a bit during this appointment – i don’t have to do the monthly xgeva and blood draws anymore. we are switching to three month intervals but i’m going back in december to take advantage of my deductible being met for the year. i’m also slated to have another pet scan in december to see how the lesions on my bones are doing.

we talked about my inability to really focus, and how my memory is worse than ever and she gave me a referral to do some cognitive therapy / rehab. the first appointment is in the morning.

i have also been feeling this discomfort in my hip. it’s hard to describe, it’s not pain, i can just feel it and i kinda hold my hip when i’m walking after sitting too long. i wasn’t sure if it was the cancer, or just my chair so i figured this was a good time to bring it up to my doctor, so after talking about the usual – meds, fatigue, and such – i brought it up. she put an order in for me to get xrays to get a better look. she also put an order in for another ultrasound of my breast to see how the tumor is reacting to the treatment.

as i was leaving the office, i was informed that my xrays were scheduled for right then, so it was a good thing i took the entire day off from work. because these xrays were of my hip and femur, the positioning for the images was awkward, but par for the course. as usual i didn’t leave without my discs, though i gotta admit, i haven’t looked at them. i’m tired y’all. anywho – i have something called a bone island in my hip and that’s what i’m feeling. apparently it’s not a huge deal. i haven’t used my googles for more in depth info on it but it’s on my list.

now, i really buried the lede here, but that post yesterday was unbelievably timely. my ultrasound was also yesterday afternoon. and i gotta tell you. i freaked tf out. it was done at the breast care center, and not at the hospital. this was the first time i was back there since my mammogram and biopsies. i was in the same exam room. and i was not prepared for the feelings that were running through me the entire time.

as the tech was rubbing that wand and looking at her computer screen, it just felt like it was taking too long. she kept going back over the same areas, and i had that eerie feeling again. y’all it was all i could do to keep from crying on the outside, but on the inside, i was weeping.

so she finishes and says the usual spiel…the doc was going to take a look at the images and come back in the room…she might want to do another exam so don’t put your clothes back on…blah blah blah. when she left the room i had a pep talk with myself. like girl, get it together…

y’all…

that doctor came in the room and said my tumor has reduced in size. my lymph nodes have also slightly decreased in size. and the other nodules in my breast can no longer be seen on the ultrasound.

so back to being grateful. that is awesome news. and i truly believe it’s because of all the praying y’all have been sending my way. we are not out of the water yet. i mean i still have cancer. but we are headed in the right direction. the treatment is working.

goodnight y’all. please keep praying for me. and go vote for us all.

but not for this idiot. if you’re voting for him, please do so on november 4th.