FCKuCANCER.

ok, so it’s been a while since i checked-in with y’all, for real, for real. here is your side effect update. again, let me preface this with saying, these may or may not be actual side effects…it’s what iiiiiiiii am feeling. periodt. also, i think it’s pretty damned amazing (and that might be the wrong word) that i’m am still experiencing side effects from one chemotherapy infusion sixteen days ago. science. amirite…

• hair loss – so we expected this one. at first i chalked it up to just normal hair shedding, especially since my hair was in the faux locs for a while. but nope. my hair is definitely coming out. its like, if i’m in the shower, and i run my fingers through the buzz cut, the palm of my hand has a ton of hair in it. and, i can also see clumps on my shoulders. when my hair is dry i’m not sure it’s really noticeable, yet. but soon come.
• headache – i have had this headache for a few days now, off and on. at times it’s all i can focus on. other times it’s just there in the background. elena says the way i describe it, it’s tension.
• scalp pain – this is not the headache. it’s like if i am out of the shower and i rub my head. it hurts. like i can feel the hair follicles move. so yeah, i try to remember not to do that.
• lower back pain – so, this one has been a thing since before the cancer. i guess it just bothers me more now that i know it’s cancer. i would say this is a side effect of the radiation, but i don’t think it is. the radiation isn’t targeting that area. hopefully, the bugatti will help relieve this. it’s really the only reason why i wanted a new bed.
• lethargy – still, allatime.
• hot flashes – still, but not as often.
• loss of focus – still.
• loss of voice – still.
• throat soreness – still.

so that’s what i’ve been up to. all in all i really don’t think any of these are anything to bitch about. the hard part hasn’t started yet.

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